Oh Shut Up

So as you know, I moving school. Dear oh dear. I want to move school because I want to study better and stay away from my boyfriend, since some problems are not settled. Well, I'm not running away from my own problems, but I'm still need to study. I don't want to move school because I can't leave my great beautiful and handsome friends here and the nice environment with my family. OMG ! I still have to go, my mom wants me to study :') Well, I guess I have to follow what my mom feels best for me. This evening I was on the phone with a friend of mine for 2 hours :O We talked about the school we are going to, and talking about seniors who bully their juniors. Damn it ! If I get any seniors who tries to bully me, one day you will get it ! This is serious shit. We talked about the system going on there, and I can conclude that I will very very very VERY busy ! It's like 4.00 am, rise and shine. 7.15 am to 2.30 pm school hours. 4.00 to 5.00pm we have the evning prep. 5.15-6.00 pm we have some relaxation, to the library, IT lab, canteen and stuff. 8.00 to 10.30 pm is our night prep. 11.30 pm lights off. I can feel the pressure. I hope I could fit-in in that school, OH GOD PLEASE ! Pressure pressure.

So just now I was calling my friends, only 2 answered, Syakina and Kien How. I talked with Syakina like sooooooooo long. Hahaha. Oh and I got this kinda threat from my boyfriend. You know what, I HATE YOU ! Yes, I do. And I'm swearing to God that I hate you ! He really gets on my nerve sometimes. This is another problem -_- Should I stop with him ? Should I continue ? Today I cried like so many times thinking of soooo many things happening around me. Although I got back again with my friend ( name won't be mentioned ) I always get bad news. Okay actually, I don't hate him, he was on my nerves just now. He's going to leave me because of kidney failure ? THIS IS SHIT ASS ! He wants me to find for a new one, but I can't ! My life is soooooooo going down.

I was watching a Chinese drama just now on TV and that drama was really like OMG ! You cheater ! How could you do that to a girl :O To guys out there, don't cheat yourself by saying you love someone but actually you don't and don't break a girls heart cause girls are sensititve. Why do stupid bad things happen to me. I don't blame God or anyone, only curious. And the mystery boy I was talking all along here in my blog, I won't get to see him anymore and I'm gonna miss him. Yeah, one day 'you' will know why you're the mystery boy. You took my heart once, but I don't know why everyting's different. I wish I could be myself that dosen't have any major problems. I'm not happy now, I'm too sad, too depressed and my blog is getting to long if I don't stop. When will I get my normal teenage life back ?! OH GOD, PLEASE HELP ME :'(

xoxo, Raihani Rahman :)
13/01/2011, 1811 hours.