Humble

Macam dah seminggu tak update. Eh ? Hahaha. Kalau on laptop pun tujuan utama, movies. Lol. And FB pun macam on tak on je. Tah lahh, lepas masuk PLKN sumpah jarang gila nak hadap FB. Bosan dah kot. Hehe. I have baby twitter right now. Ecehh. 

Anyways, benda yg aku cam nervous bulan disember 2013 ni, antaranya luluskan diri utk JPJ Test and Finals Results Semester 1. Alhamdulillah, JPJ Test dah settle and lulus and tahun depan sumpah nak bawak kereta pergi kolej. Taknak jalan kaki, taknak naik teksi. Naik teksi ingat murah ke bro ? TAK. Haha kayy. Bukan taknak jalan kaki, aku ni cepat berpeluh satu hal, well, athlete enn ? Hahaha. Panas dia, masha Allah. Tapi ummi cam tk confident dengan aku lagi. Haihh, mothers. They concern a lot. That's when you know she loves you. Awww :')

Next, finals utk sem 1 punya results. You know, I was not confident, complaining all the time about being scared and nervous not getting good results and what so not stuff like that. Well, it happens to be that results ktorg keluar awal ! Wow, aku cam nak pengsan bila dapat tahu, and bila check tu ya Allah, tk tenteram gila sbb bdk accountancy dapat tahu dulu and budak business cam bangang meroyan tk tentu hala, especially dkat whatsapp dgn twitter ah weh ! Hahahaha, this, unforgettable :p

Alhamdulillah, after I checked my results, eh jap, sebelum tu, haha, ktorg tktau pun pointer berapa. Sedih gila dohh. Dia bgtau grades je. So ktorg budak business ada 6 subjek utk finals and aku dapat 5A 1A-. Sumpah lawak doh bila member tnya " Weh kau berapa ?" "5A 1A-" Apa kau fikir UPSR ? PMR ? Hahaha. Habis dah tktau pointer, ckap ahh camtu en. Soooo, bila dah dpat tahu pointer tu sumpah aku over-shocked gila nak tergolek, sbb sebelum duduk utk finals tu aku target 3.8. Then bila dah duduk utk finals, aku rasa mcm tk confident gila babun so aku target lah 3.5. Itu sbb mmg nak dekan. Kalau tk aku target 3.4 je. Sekali kau, check balik 3.94 dohhh pointer. 

Time tu rasa nak back flip apa bagai ahh weh. Hahahaha.I was thankful and my parents were smiling and that makes me happy :) Heee. So tu je nak update. Haha. Malas nak berdiari-diari ni, penat nak tulis, jari gua dah lah retak, ingt tk sakit ke kalau tulis bnyk ? -.- Hm, sadis. Okay nights !

xoxo, Raihani Rahman :)

0125 hours, 17.12.2013

Ninety

90 ? Hahaha, alright. Nothing much to say. I am sleepy af but I can't go to sleep yet. Well, I've been watching online movies and yeah having fun with some people, although tk jumpa tapi just dalam twitter, whatsapp and stuff like that. I'm not really sure if I'm happy or the other way round. Hm, Sad. 

I am actually confused. Hahaha. Double the sadness oh please ! You know what, I love you. Yeahh, I love you. I don't think you feel the same way anymore, well, I don't know. Negative clue. We're so close, we, you and I, you know. Ahhhh I hate this feeling :( My heart should stop loving people who don't love me. Pffttt. Triple the sadness man. I don't know what to say. Hm, so yeah end of post. Hahaha. I'll something better soon ;)

xoxo, Raihani Rahman :)

0019hours, 9.12.2013

Clear

Greetings :)

Dah nak sebulan tak update blog. Last time update pun masa tu dekat hostel. Hehe. Gahh rindu pulak bilik A135 tu. Well, finals were more or less fine. Idk, I tried my best, what I studied is what I will get for my results and hoping that my results will make the entire world celebrate for me. Hahaha nahh. Mesti lah semua pun nak good good result kan ? Same here, currently nervous waiting for le' finals results. Harapharap murah rezeki, dapat dean's list. AMIN !

Next, cerita pagi tadi, dekat Metro Driving Academy. Hehehe. JPJ Test weh ! Mulamula memang confident lulus kan, yelahh sebab my dad macam support gila gila. Lepastu followed by ummi and friends. And also some others orang luar. Lepastu masa tengah tunggu turn dekat station 3 tu, tengok yg candidates yg pergi buat dulu semua cam ramai je hancur. Perghh gabra level 8999. Hahahaha. Lepastu cinfidence level cam dah turun turun and turun. Sumpah nervous nak mati. Rasa mcm nak nangis kejap. Hehe.

Then when it's my turn, aku cam rileks kan diri bla bla bla semua and yeah bukit was first to go and guess what ? Kereta yg aku dapat sumpah mcm harem -.- Clutch dia susah nak tekan and kalau lepas laju SIKIT je enjin mati. Handbreak mcm nak patah, gear dia lagi ahh malas aku cite sini. Hahaha. Then naik bukit semua okayy, BUT ! Bila nak turun tu, perghhh panas hati gua. 3 kali enjin mati atas tu sbb clutch dia mcm bangang. Hahaha aku pun dah mcm panik sikit. Pfftt. Tapi overall lulus kan ? So kira okay lah tuuu. Hehehe.

Harini rasa mcm lain macam sikit. Idk. Tapi mmg mcm lain. Aku rasa nk menyendiri tapi nnt tkut ada yg terasa. Ehh entahlah. Penat duk jaga perasan org, perasan aku ni tk terjaga. And yeahh, a few days back ni ada lah jgk mcm dah sebak tk blh tahan tu, nangis je. Takdelah nak melalak depan org. Tapi sebelum tido tu mesti cam haaa. Hehe. I need to be stronger. I need support. I need people to understand me and accept me the way I am. That's all. Siapa je nak baca post aku ni. Luahan perasaan pun dekat atas sejadah dgn dkat sini. Haihh. Goodnight ! 

xoxo, Raihani Rahman :)

2208 hours, 5.12.2013