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Dah nak sebulan tak update blog. Last time update pun masa tu dekat hostel. Hehe. Gahh rindu pulak bilik A135 tu. Well, finals were more or less fine. Idk, I tried my best, what I studied is what I will get for my results and hoping that my results will make the entire world celebrate for me. Hahaha nahh. Mesti lah semua pun nak good good result kan ? Same here, currently nervous waiting for le' finals results. Harapharap murah rezeki, dapat dean's list. AMIN !

Next, cerita pagi tadi, dekat Metro Driving Academy. Hehehe. JPJ Test weh ! Mulamula memang confident lulus kan, yelahh sebab my dad macam support gila gila. Lepastu followed by ummi and friends. And also some others orang luar. Lepastu masa tengah tunggu turn dekat station 3 tu, tengok yg candidates yg pergi buat dulu semua cam ramai je hancur. Perghh gabra level 8999. Hahahaha. Lepastu cinfidence level cam dah turun turun and turun. Sumpah nervous nak mati. Rasa mcm nak nangis kejap. Hehe.

Then when it's my turn, aku cam rileks kan diri bla bla bla semua and yeah bukit was first to go and guess what ? Kereta yg aku dapat sumpah mcm harem -.- Clutch dia susah nak tekan and kalau lepas laju SIKIT je enjin mati. Handbreak mcm nak patah, gear dia lagi ahh malas aku cite sini. Hahaha. Then naik bukit semua okayy, BUT ! Bila nak turun tu, perghhh panas hati gua. 3 kali enjin mati atas tu sbb clutch dia mcm bangang. Hahaha aku pun dah mcm panik sikit. Pfftt. Tapi overall lulus kan ? So kira okay lah tuuu. Hehehe.

Harini rasa mcm lain macam sikit. Idk. Tapi mmg mcm lain. Aku rasa nk menyendiri tapi nnt tkut ada yg terasa. Ehh entahlah. Penat duk jaga perasan org, perasan aku ni tk terjaga. And yeahh, a few days back ni ada lah jgk mcm dah sebak tk blh tahan tu, nangis je. Takdelah nak melalak depan org. Tapi sebelum tido tu mesti cam haaa. Hehe. I need to be stronger. I need support. I need people to understand me and accept me the way I am. That's all. Siapa je nak baca post aku ni. Luahan perasaan pun dekat atas sejadah dgn dkat sini. Haihh. Goodnight ! 

xoxo, Raihani Rahman :)

2208 hours, 5.12.2013