SAYONARA !

Dear SMK USJ 13 friends,

I will surely miss all of you and hope to meet again :) Although we have gone through tough and smooth, dark and dusty, but every memory would not be erased by me. To my best buddies, I'll miss you like crazy, yeah ! I hope I can fit-in in that school. Gosh, I'm sick, my voice is STILL not okay, I'm coughing and coughing :O As I was packing my clothes just now, I was halfway busy with the tissue -_- I was thinking of bringing a box of tissue, but naaah. By bag is full already :D LOL.

Dear SMKT KL people,

I wish to know more about the school. I hope you guys would welcome me. Hmm next, I don't know what to write here about this school. Hmmm.

So okay, I'm chatting with my cousin and Alif Aiman. Hahah, Aiman was repeating the same thing when we were about to leave the chatbox. He reminded me not to forget him, and his jokes. He'll miss me. Aww, I'll miss you too, Aiman :) His a nice friend. To Aida Aliah, sorry for spreading my virus to you :( But seriously now, I'm having a slight fever. Oh nooo. I'm kinda excited for tomorrow, but at the same time, I'm worried too :O Hmm, yesterday night I had a dream on 'him' again, and I was curious. Why did he appear in my dream after he knows I'm leaving ? I AM CURIOUS -_- Goodbye 'him', again :) Heee.

WELL, LASTLY I WANNA SAY HERE, GOODBYE SUBANG JAYA AND HELLO KUALA LUMPUR, GOODBYE FELLOW GREAT FRIENDS, HELLO NEW UNKNOWN FRIENDS. Will be updating soon if I'm back. Bye people, and take care :)

Lots Of Love, Raihani Rahman :)
2300 hours, 16/01/2011

Cramp

I don't know why but this evening as I was sleeping, I dreamt of 'him' and it was a sad dream. Awwwh ! I wish I could see him for the last time. But I don't think so. I only see him in school just now :( Gooodbye 'you'. I wish I could do more stuff to tell him I kinda sort of like him. Oh shit. BYE !

xoxo, Raihani Rahman :)
0158 hours, 16/01/2011

Crash or Crush ?

Today went to school around 7.45 am. Walked with Afiqah Muzainah and Aida Aliah. Before that went to eat at the mamak stall in front of my house. So yesterday I and Aida Aliah had a sleepover. aida slept at my house. We were sooooo excited about SHINee. We watched their videos from 10.00 pm to 11.00 and then I started to online, facebooking and stuff, Aida watched alone and she fell asleep,cause I left her alone. Hehehe. Sorry :) Then I woke here up around 12.15 am, and we straighten up our hair using the straighterner. It was hot ! LOL. Then I talked a lot -_- aida just listened and I felt like taling to myself. No offence Aida Aliah. Heh. Well, I slept around 3, aida Aliah slept earlier, she's tired I guess. So much for not sleeping -_- Pffft. Hahaha. So we woke up around 6.40 am and I was like OH SHIT ! We're sooo late. We set the alarm at 5.15 am, but I guess I got up, went to the toilet and go to sleep again :) LMAO. So today we had the meeting stuff and it was so sad cause I could only watch them slecting and voting people. Awww :( Why must I leave the school ?

Afternoon, Aida Aliah was seriously sick and I was coughing like a shit -_- My voice now is gone. Like I could only give hand signals -_- so not cool ! Evening I felt asleep after doing add maths and when I woke up, I had a slight fever and I could not walk straight. Arghh. It's going to be school days already and now I'm sick. OMG ! Hmm, nevermind. There must be something for this :) Currently, watching TV3 with Abg Hafiz, blogging here, and downloading some songs intomy MP4. Sooooo damn freakin' slow. Shish ! Got to go. This movie is so boring -_-My backbone is in pain, heh. Goooooodnight bloggers :D

xoxo, Raihani Rahman :)
0136 hours, 16/01/2011

Kisses from me to You

How I wish falling in love has traffic lights too,
So that I would know if,
I should GO for it, SLOW DOWN, or just STOP,
To avoid heart accident.


I fucking miss you all day.
everyday,
and you can't even imagine,
how pathetic it makes me feel,
because I don't even know if you
miss me back.

You stole my heart once,
You stole my heart twice,
But now you throw my heart just like that,
I wonder,
Are you cheap ? Or are you just FUCKING STUPID ?

A heartbreaker is a person who always breaks the heart,
A heartbroken is a person who always gets the heart break,
So if you poke a hole in my heart,
Sorry, is not the way to say you want me back.

Well, I don't know why I'm posting this, but I'm just letting everything out :)

xoxo, Raihani Rahman :)
13/01/2011, 1822 hours.

Oh Shut Up

So as you know, I moving school. Dear oh dear. I want to move school because I want to study better and stay away from my boyfriend, since some problems are not settled. Well, I'm not running away from my own problems, but I'm still need to study. I don't want to move school because I can't leave my great beautiful and handsome friends here and the nice environment with my family. OMG ! I still have to go, my mom wants me to study :') Well, I guess I have to follow what my mom feels best for me. This evening I was on the phone with a friend of mine for 2 hours :O We talked about the school we are going to, and talking about seniors who bully their juniors. Damn it ! If I get any seniors who tries to bully me, one day you will get it ! This is serious shit. We talked about the system going on there, and I can conclude that I will very very very VERY busy ! It's like 4.00 am, rise and shine. 7.15 am to 2.30 pm school hours. 4.00 to 5.00pm we have the evning prep. 5.15-6.00 pm we have some relaxation, to the library, IT lab, canteen and stuff. 8.00 to 10.30 pm is our night prep. 11.30 pm lights off. I can feel the pressure. I hope I could fit-in in that school, OH GOD PLEASE ! Pressure pressure.

So just now I was calling my friends, only 2 answered, Syakina and Kien How. I talked with Syakina like sooooooooo long. Hahaha. Oh and I got this kinda threat from my boyfriend. You know what, I HATE YOU ! Yes, I do. And I'm swearing to God that I hate you ! He really gets on my nerve sometimes. This is another problem -_- Should I stop with him ? Should I continue ? Today I cried like so many times thinking of soooo many things happening around me. Although I got back again with my friend ( name won't be mentioned ) I always get bad news. Okay actually, I don't hate him, he was on my nerves just now. He's going to leave me because of kidney failure ? THIS IS SHIT ASS ! He wants me to find for a new one, but I can't ! My life is soooooooo going down.

I was watching a Chinese drama just now on TV and that drama was really like OMG ! You cheater ! How could you do that to a girl :O To guys out there, don't cheat yourself by saying you love someone but actually you don't and don't break a girls heart cause girls are sensititve. Why do stupid bad things happen to me. I don't blame God or anyone, only curious. And the mystery boy I was talking all along here in my blog, I won't get to see him anymore and I'm gonna miss him. Yeah, one day 'you' will know why you're the mystery boy. You took my heart once, but I don't know why everyting's different. I wish I could be myself that dosen't have any major problems. I'm not happy now, I'm too sad, too depressed and my blog is getting to long if I don't stop. When will I get my normal teenage life back ?! OH GOD, PLEASE HELP ME :'(

xoxo, Raihani Rahman :)
13/01/2011, 1811 hours.